A month which is filled with both tears and joy
I have went through a lot of difficulties throughout this month
Dunno why
Bad luck seemed to enjoy following me around
Since the beginning of my 2nd semester
Almost everyday I have to deal with different hard scenarios
On the first day of school
I have the craziest timetable
which starts from 8am to 7pm
and my German class being cancelled
On the second day
I had a great shock from the report writing class
A class with a scaring, strict lecturer + all third year students as my coursemates
where we'll then have to do reports based on surveys and researches
The briefing given really freaked 5 of us out a lot that day
The next day
I had received calls from the Academic Division officers
that the Ethnic Relation group which I was in is invalid
which indicates that I had to register again for another group in order take this subject
Nevertheless, I had the worst nightmare on the second week
I was forced by my team manager
to take part in both intercollege debate and public speaking competition for the same week
It wasn't my turn for the debate
but I accepted the order for debate
as the original representative had some emergency cases
However, for the intercollege public speaking competition
I really couldn't do it
I actually had phobia to talk in front of the public
Moreover I'm those type of people who couldn't speak well spontaneously
I had already made my biggest move for the debate
and that's my limit
Plus she only told me about the competition three days before exact day of competition
How on earth she expect me to do well when I have no experience at all?
Additionally I was one of the committee members for the event that day
Hence, I rejected the instruction for public speaking by stating my position clearly
Still my manager kept on persuading me to participate
as there's no one who is free or willing to represent our college for the competition
Me and another two friends kept being haunted by her and her head of department
She even planned of refraining us from becoming the committees in order to make us available that day =.=
The list of her actions goes on for another few days
All her calls and words nearly killed me
I indeed didn't like the feelings of being forced or threatened to do something
The situation actually gets more complicated later
and i don't really know how to express them in words clearly here
but the most fortunate thing is that eventually none of us have to participate in the competition
I felt relieved that time
but then the worst thing happened
I lost my matric card (student card) on the way for the debate!
and I only discovered about that just before the debate going to start >.<
Pretty bad luck i had right?
Well, I have experienced another long and bitter journey
of reporting and getting a new one for the following week
At the same time, a few things happened again in the lecture hall
I was totally helpless and mentally exhausted
I wished to be at home but I couldn't
as there were big events and activities for the three consecutive weeks
I really missed my family and my home a lot that time T____T
Luckily, I managed to sneak back home during Thaipusam
I nearly cried when i spilt out all my sad encounters with mummy
Of course, I felt way better after that
and I realized that I really depend a lot on my family
Now I really salute my friends who had to stay far away from home in order to continue their studies
They really carried themselves very well
I couldn't imagine how would I able to go through those hardships without my family's company
I was grateful too
that I have some good friends who helped me to endure all these things
Thanks to Mei Yee, for always helping and accompanying me to lodge report
I was scared and worried that time
Thanks to her support, I was able to make up for most of the things
I really owed her a lot
Another thank you,
specially dedicated to the spammers on my facebook wall the other day. LOL
Most probably they had no idea on how thankful I was to them
I was really DOWN that day
and they had actually made the day easier for me
I owed them these words
Thank you, my friends.
I kept on telling that I had real bad luck since the beginning of this brand new year.
But then Mei Yee consoled me
telling me that all these misfortunes would end soon as the new year is yet to begin
*she meant the Lunar new year.
Ughh
I really hope what she said would turn to be real.
I desperately need some good luck for my upcoming tests. =/
It'll be CNY in two more days! Hope that everyone will have a happy and healthy year ahead!
PS: Despite those unlucky incidents, I had some great moments in the end of January. I shall share them in my next post.
Remember to pray for those suffered from the floods these days also . =]
